forever i love U

2005-12-19T10:25:00.000+08:00

Alright.

Don't tell me how to do.
Teach me what to do.

Yesterday's candle light service was great... so cool. only candles lighting up the entire hall. beautiful..

Was pretty disappointed yesterday. dun feel like blogging... bye

2005-12-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

M.I.A for weeks and im back now blogging.

Was busy with drama for the past weeks and i realli enjoyed it :)

Getting myself involve in drama is a challenge and dialect drama is even more challenging. Firstly becoz my dialect is C.M.I and also, is my first time involving in drama soo... is challenging man.

But i had a fruitful time in drama...

I get to know alot of people from this drama... there is quite a number of SOT students as well.
Initially when we started off, we dun realli know each other. So is kinda boring coz i cant crap around.. haha.. lol.. but when started to mingle wid one another.... u can talk and crap wid each other.

Actualli we have less den a month to prepare this drama. U can see that everyone is putting alot of effort and time despite their busy schedules. We became very dependent on God as well. Especially today b4 the actual drama. Everyone was praying, praying and praying for the grace of God. In short, we commmit this drama in God's hand.

During the first few pract, i kept getting scolded by Veron. I cant bring out the role that im acting in me and also cant say my lines fluently. Kept getting scolded ... :( By the grace of God, here comes my breakthrough. With my own effort, i dun think i can do better. If things dun take effort, u wont appreciate it la !! haha

Now, drama is over and will definately missssssss it. The fun and joyful times we shared .. so memorable :D

2005-12-12T14:07:00.000+08:00

Been pretty much packed up.

Satuday
Went to town to support the out-standing event. Had fun at there. Had bk for dinner den went to shop around for jin cai's formal shirt. Soo tired till i dozed off in the bus zzz.

Sunday
Sun Service was way awesome. Though i felt sermon was kind of long but still i love it. =) Prasie and Worship session was so powerful... strong presence there.

After svc, went for lunch at the foodcourt. Qun and i were the first 2 to order food... hah. And the rest were looking at us while we were eating. :X Rushed down to my estate to do busing.
My estate has a breakthrough attendance of 45. wow.. PTL :)

Went back to CHC. the moment i steeped into the building .. kinda quiet. hmm... soo unusual. missed those times but we r goin from glory to glory. So lets look ahead... looking forward to the 10 thousands seaters.

Its Monday again. This week gonna be quite packed.. at the same e time, excited. ByE=)

2005-12-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

Im sooo happy today=))

Juz came home from drama pract at veron's bro hse. okie... today's pract was alright. Veron said today was well done! well done guys!!

Met Alan and Justin for dinner. And they were late!! We had ramlly burger for dinner =D

Alan told me his cg is transferring zone... to pastor WYZ. Ohh.. that my zone. well, we will be in the same zone, under the same zone leader. haha... is so gd to be under the same zone=) We might be having same zone outing in future. wahaha!

Anyway, did saturation wid zhi wei in west-walk-in in the afternoon. Juz hoping the respond from there will be gd. =)

*im getting excited about dialect big day. 17th dec... * smile~

2005-12-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday Prayer Meeting at EXPO was awesome! The moment Praise started, the whole atmosphere seems to change drastically, like somehow something was breaking forth. I can't wait for service this weekend. I know it's gonna be ultra awesome. And it's only the begining. hohoho.

2005-12-06T01:38:00.000+08:00

Today was alright.

Had dinner with Isaiah.

Today was the last drama pract at lifeworks. ( mich: cant meet u for dinner le) The rest of the pract will be at the audi. hmm... drama pract was alright. Realli wanna thank God for a breakthrough in acting (compared to last week) but there is still room for improvement =) [ haha.. jus to cheer myself up la] 3-4 more pract left... some pract till 2am... stress.. BUT, i m still enjoying it despite all those 'stress' .. hee hee =)

O ya, this sun gonna be extremely long for me. Will be having drama pract in the audi from 8pm till 11pm? 2am?. therefore, i need u guys prayers... Pray for strength and breakthrough in acting.. very much appreciate of ur prayers! =)

2005-12-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

yummy !!

2005-12-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

Okie, seriously, i was totally blown off before the cgm. With myself? Or ? No comments on that. Im disappointed!! there is nothing i can do... the problem still exist.

Today cgm was at william's hse function room. Is like a month since we had cgm... and i kinda miss it actualli. After cgm, we had BBQ. BBQ was fun and enjoyable... think everyone had a great time. =))

im kinda stressed up about the drama now. 2 more days... Mon will be having drama pract and realli hope it will turn out to be smooth. :X

Okie, think i better cut it short... wanted to watch tv~ tata

2005-11-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!! im back!! hee..MISS ME??? heee haben been blogging for a few days.. busy with?? hmm...

Sunday services were simply awesome... 3 wonderful services :) Before u realized it, this week is the last week that we are having service at jurong west!!! rejoice? yeaH, we are going from glory to glory =)

Went out with yan yin on monday... she is back for summer vacation till next feb :D she bought me a hot pink billabong shopping bag and a collection of winnie the pooh candy canes. the canes are soo cutee till i dun intend to eat it... hee hee. Rushed for drama pract in the evening. Justine is so bad la, kept laughing at the canes :X

Time realli flies and tmr is 1 dec. Dec, dec, dec. Month of celebration.... x'mas.. heee. Dec is also a month of breakthrough :D i need breakthrough in my life... yesh. There are mani things revolving around my life and at times, i seemed to be lost and screwd up . :X this is when faith comes...

2005-11-23T02:17:00.000+08:00

Your cg is allocated to tmr's BS. hmm... hee hee :D . Get ready to receive great words tmr:)

Well, had a fruitful day today. Cant blog much now... busy organizing my stuff.

2005-11-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

Juz came back from drama pract not long. Having my super duper late supper / super duper early breakfast ( 1am) now. hee hee.

Drama pract is fun!! Especially now, is the best time for me to pick up dialect. So in future, i can communicate well with the elderly. =) today, 9 people turned up for the pract and there will be more next week. Oh yes, someone nv come today so gotta see ya in the next pract :X oops.. wahaha

Met CT for dinner juz now... we had curry chicken :) The journey from my hse to bedok is 1 h 30min... gosh, is soo long.

bye =))

2005-11-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

I love Sunday!!! Is one of the best day throughout the week =))

Svc was great... come with expectancy and faith.

PTL. Estate attendance is 42. compared to last week 38... is much better=) Initially, i was quite disappointed as there were v few elderly boaded the bus in stirling area.( less den 30 elderly) i tot, is the worst attendance in bus 7. However, the last pick-up point, i was totally shocked to see so many elderly ... hee hee. PTL.

After serving, went to fellowship wid the ppl from my estate. We were talking about The Tabernacle and im getting more and more excited. In short, The Tabernacle is simply amazing... Everything in the tabernacle has it own purpose and use. I cant wait for next tue BS

2005-11-15T01:11:00.000+08:00

time for some updates...

Jay chou's ablum is out!!! wow... listening to his songs now.... thumb up!!! think my computer knows that I'm in love with his songs, that's why it only plays Jay Chou's songs for me to listen when I set it in the 'shuffle' mode.

There are so many upcoming movies that i want to watch... just like heaven, harry potter etc etc. movie season... weee ^^

Last weekend's been quite horrible. Everything just went wrong from the start.

Sunday service was alright. After the service, i rushed down to my estate to do busing. Was on the same train as eddy and we chatted. We were talking about 'calling ' (related to the service) and realli helps me in my ministry.

Anyway, this week gonna be quite a busy week for me but i like it =))

Had drama practice just now :D Went bedok ... chc lifework ( a centre for the JAMS ppl ). The train ride was quite long... yeah. Is time to train for long distance rides ... hee hee. Only 5 ppl including me coz most of them cant make it today. and the crew are not all from dialect. U muz be wondering wad can 5 ppl do today rite. well, juz had a briefing on our roles etc. It turned out to be fun anyway :D looking forward to the next drama pract :))

So excited about tmr's BS...

night :DD

2005-11-09T12:23:00.000+08:00

San's house stayover was... great? Hee Hee

The hilarious incident was that i went to the wrong hse! yup... Reached san's hse at about 11.30pm last night and was happily and excitedly knocking at her door. after den , i kept knocking at the door and pressing the door bell but no one opens the door. Before reaching her hse, i gave her a call and she said she was online playing games. Den i gave her a call and tell her im at her dooor step. waited for like 5 mins, i called her again and she said she was at her door and i juz wondered how come the door was not open...

FINALLY, i asked her :' ur door no is #**-*** rite.' And oops.... i realised she lives another storey up, not on this storey.' I was like freaked out k.. heehee. Thanks God that the family lives there was either not in or still in their dreamland... lalala. :D

In the mid of the nite, we sneaked into the kitchen and cooked our supper. fried eggs and sausages... yummmy. After the 'sumptuous' supper, she suggested to play monoploy. Its been like ages ever since i played that. okie, for the whole nite, we were playing monopoly.. lol. slept at 6am and woke up and 9am. see, i only barely sleep for 3 hrs :x Was happy though coz i became a 'millionair' and she declared bankrupt :P

2005-11-08T12:52:00.000+08:00

If things doesnt take efforts, you won't appreciate it as much as you do.

2005-11-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

I remember entries after enteries of reminiscing , laced with much wistfulness, about the past and all that used to be. glad i'm finally new memories to reminisce about in time to come :) never thought it'd be like this... blah blah

2005-11-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

Times and again, i will keep reminding myself 'the fact'. Is not that im escaping or what-so-ever. But just that .... And wish this will never never a mistake

2005-11-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

Went for blood donation yesterday :) okie, suppose to meet at 1pm and tat bai liao shu still at home sleeping. hee hee. so only edwin and i went for the blood donation and hui bing joined there. blood donation was alright juz that i only donated a smaller bag of blood compared to other as the nurse said my body cant take it. ...

Went Queenway after the blood donation den lim CC finally came. hehe. After tat we went to Great World City. =)) Walk around and bought nothing!!

Well, i was quite freaked out and pissed off in the morning ...

Anyway, serving was still alright today. Like i said, have to take charge of bus 7 today ( at least 1 month) and things dun realli turned out well. Feel like a failure k. Cos i sent out wrong number of rice and there were sortage of 2 packets, etc. Things doesnt turned out as planned. Everything seemed so up side down. :(

okie, at least i learnt something. See, being a leader is not EASY! Leadership is the power to shape the future! Now, i understand is not easy to become a good leader especially spiritual leader. Spiritual leadership is the basic of influence because it directly determines our beliefs, values, attitudes and motivations. Leaders influence other leaders. Therefore, is very important that we support and help our leader. =))

If is not the support from my elderly, things might turned out even worse today. i will do a better job next week :D

2005-11-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

Let the weak say I am strong

2005-11-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

'Its my pleasure to serve the elderlys' =))

Im kinda stressed up now... yesh. Met up with lyn today. She gave a short briefing about the things i have to do on this sun. things like : things to do before and after the dialect service, things to be recoreded down, ensuring this and that.. etc. Coz gonna cover up her duty for about a month... in short, i will be the temporary leader in my estate. stress!!

Did visitation alone today... and i gotta do this for a month. Is time to be independent!! See, visitation is not an easy task. Every week, we have a visitation guide and when we are doing visitation, we must somehow talk to them about last week's sermon etc. However, we must act according to situation. If the situaution is not right, we must share with them other things.

After visitation, i met with with lyn for dinner. spent quality time.. haha. We were jus talking about the dialect's bro outing and we sis, will be having sis outing as well :P hee hee. Fun time :D
Bus 7 rocks :D

okie, the moment i stepped into my hse, i ran to my room, locked the door and cried. =( I keep thinking : why me? why me? why me? is so unfair!! And this is not the first time!!! As i was crying bitterly, i remember what pst kong shared yesterday. He was wronged and forgive them... good attitude. He can do it, why cant i. HE knows everything. And i truly believe that the truth will reveal one day.

2005-11-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

Dear readers,
thanks for keeping this site alive with all your comments and voiceouts. really appreciate u guys. u know who u are. :) thanks for coming here dispite ur busy days... haha.. to read about my life, nonsense, etc. hehe. In short, all about me :DLurve u all guys, God bless! :)

[specially delicated to my readers=))]

2005-11-01T00:22:00.001+08:00

So what's the point of telling when u know u can't do anything to it!!! Is a fact ... a fact that neither you nor me could change.

Sometimes, things are juz beyond my control...

tell me, tell me, tell me what should i do??

2005-11-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, talented, fabulous?Actually, who are you not to be?You are a child of God.Your playing small does not serve the world.There is nothing enlightened about shrinkingso that other people won't feel insecure around you.We are all meant to shine, as children do.We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciouslygive other people permission to do the same.As we are liberated from our own fear,our presence automatically liberates others.

2005-10-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

One thing i ask, tat i may dwell in your house forever....

2005-10-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

well, i guess is time for some updates.... been rather busy recently..

Had CGM this morning after tat we went to Pasir ris for the Ultimate challenge. anyway, it seems like i hasnt been to pasir ris for ages.... by passed the Escape theme park... how i wish the event will be in the theme park... haha.

Think last night rained heavily at Pasir ris area. The field is soo muddy... lol. Before started off with the 1st game for the day, each group are suppose to come out with a group name and ours is... strawberry ranger. haha! Our cheer is super funny :X .... lol.

The games and all were okay. As usual the first game is Ice-breaking game. But this Ice- breaking is rather fun... we gonna started off as an egg to a chick, to a hen and finally a monster. erm.... rather an interesting ice-breaking game. After tat, we preceed to different stations

And yes, did i mention my cg misses edwin tan lots? lol. haha. yeah yeaH, we misses you lots:D

Anway, had a happening week :) Wee ... we will shine like star above.... weeee

2005-10-21T18:39:00.000+08:00

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2005-10-21T01:45:00.000+08:00

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2005-10-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

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2005-10-20T00:33:00.000+08:00

Edwin is cuteee... lol! His 'muhahaha' is even cuter lor ... wahaha!! :D

Wanted to go swimming in the noon but it rained .. so sad.

Anyway, had great time of fellowship at harbour front today=)) Met up at HF foodcourt for dinner with wil, jin cai, edwin, hui bing, del and sophina. I walked round and round the foodcourt and finally settled with the jap curry rice set (convinced by edwin's recommendation). :D

2005-10-18T11:36:00.000+08:00

played badminton yesterday evening with jerremy, maria, lynn, wendy and... ken..lol.. good game. :D challenging though.. and i bruised my arm (juz dun understand how come m i the onli one with brusied arm).. lol. Maria is pro man... haha. but it was all kinda fun and good game though. was kinda tired u see.. =X and yeah. smash smash smash. lol. and im aching a little now. tired.. looking forward to another round of badminton =))

2005-10-18T11:28:00.000+08:00

The secret to it all is 'desire' :P

2005-10-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

Recently, a Singaporean ex-scholar who is currently pursuing his post-graduate education in the United States has been faced with legal action after posting defamatory comments of Agency for Science, Technology and Research (A*STAR)'s scholarship system, in his online diaries. Persecuted by the situation, the ex-scholar immediately shut down his online diary, making apologies to the agency while promising not to mention about the agency in his website again. This incident has caused an immediate upstir among the online diary community as it raised many issues about the ethics of online diary writing and also the autonomy in expressing oneâ€™s opinion and thoughts. In this article, we will discuss and examine some of the important issues that have surfaced.

Let us look first at the origins of online diary itself. An online diary, as many have already known, is an evolution of a personal diary itself. An online diary is a form of web content, web page, where the entries are dated and posted in a reverse chronological order, so that the most recent posting appears first. Then, many would question about the difference between personal diaries and online diaries as both perform similar functions.

The difference between a personal diary and an online diary goes beyond the usage of pen and paper to the usage of the keyboard and HTML scripts. The common misconception found in most people is equating online diaries with that of a personal diary. However, the key affiliation here is the media. In a personal diary, the sole media that it is usually available to is the writer himself/herself and infrequently, to any third parties. Yet, little do we know that when he/she posts an entry in an online diary, what seems personal to himself/herself do not appear as what it is. It is because as soon as this piece of information is posted, it is instantly available to millions of people around the globe who are connected onto the internet. Hence, can online diary users post what ever they want and what ever they feel strongly about with utter ignorance of the existence of the media?

It is estimated that there are 10 million online diaries on the web today and a new one is said to be create every 2.2 seconds. This number is expected to explode to an overwhelming amount of 53.3 million by the end of 2005. The reason behind online diary successful penetration into the hearts of many people is its ability of allowing people to have their own say somewhere where they would not start a fight about the past. Somewhere where they can have the last word and also a medium where people can listen to their side of the story. People can now have an audience from the internet, people from all walks of life, who became their therapist, confidant, and intimate friends. When their real world friends were asleep or just felt too distant, and it helps to be able to talk to their journal readers, even though they do not know most of them, even though most of them did not talk back. However, with this many online diaries around, how is it possible to ensure that all the information that are posted online are ethical? The answer boils down to one thing, the online diary users.

As online diaries are found in public domains, if any online diary users decides to post an entry and makes certain statements, they must be mindful of defamation. Defamation is defined as making false deprecatory statements about a person; a person can also include an organization, where such statements affect the personâ€™s character, his morals, abilities, business practices, and etcetera. The query in defamation is to comprehend that defamation is specific from the perspective of the person who feels defamed. However, if one is able to justify his/her statements with factual evidences, then, he/her earns what is known as a valid defense. It is then, easy to understand that the discipline behind online diary is exercising personal responsibility.

Is there, then, anything else we can do? In fact there is. Rather than discouraging ourselves from posting any potential forum for robust discussion, we should try to be filled with the spirit to give healthy feedback and ideas to others while being mindful of own thoughts so as to avoid stating any defamatory statements. As the saying goes, â€œIron sharpens iron and two heads are better than one!â€ Nevertheless, we should be sensitive of the issues raised in an online diary because in the world of internet, we are never alone.

2005-10-13T12:11:00.000+08:00

The feeling of putting myself in a dilemma position is not very gd. How i wish i can ' one stone kills two birds'. May i have the wisdom in making decisions ....

Anyway, probably in a month time, i might be receiving some great news ... some stuff which i have been waiting for and i will sieze the opportunity. yeah yeah ... siezing the moment of my next destination =)) love motivates but fath activates.

2005-10-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

Today, xue fang passed a remark: ' sharon, how come i cant get to see my name on your blog?' ... lol

Anyway, today is my last day of work at a labelling company in Alexandra. Hmmm... feeling rather sad actually coz it left with many wonderful and unforgettable memories...

Gina - the phone girl( forever on the phone).. haha. always flood us with lame + cold - funny jokes...
Xue fang - the self- proclaim 'shy' girl...
Issac - the self-proclaim ' handsome' guy...
not forgetting joanna and lawrence.

I enjoyed my days at work especially with this group of ppl. =) Got to know alot of nice ppl in the office as well. O ya, not to forget, tat IT guy as well. dunno wads his name but always smile when he passes us. Our 'pink girl' ( she has a charming smile) and lawrence's pink lady (no comments).. haha.

I will definately miss those days at work which brought me beautiful memories. Not to forget, gina, xuefang and i, our favourite hang-out during office hour-- the pantry. haha. we juz simply love to snack lots. trying out different and crazy things like: coffee + tea ( thanks to isaac's recommandation -_-''). think the pantry aunty is sick of us goin in and out of the pantry. and whenever there is new food and re-stock of food, we juz happen to know la. haha.

And we are always on time. .. as in, we r always on time, not to work, instead, when the clock strikes 5.45pm, we are already preparing to leave. same goes for lunch time :D wahaha!!

O ya, we ordered canadian- pizza for lunch today. juz b4 lunch time, the pizza already delivered to our workplace. Gosh, the whole office was filled with unresistable and yummy smell of pizza.... wahaha!!

yeah, im looking forward to choh's BBQ which is on next sat. weee =))

2005-10-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

Seems like alot has been happening, but well i'm not going to provide all the details. Keeping it short.

Happening life yet too happening for me....

yeah, finally im able to post my entries again. =)) For the past few days, i cant post entry due to temporary problems with the servers (blogspot). Last night, i laid hands and prayed for my blogger...and by the grace of God, today im able to post entry again... haha. (joking!)

Last night i contacted the blogger support and wrote an email to them. Gave them some feedbacks etc as well. And surprisingly, the ' Errors' are gone. think is due to some technical problems with the blogspot and not my com. My com is perfectly in gd condition :D

Saw the freshly made trailer for Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire! You know how exciting it is to wait for the movie to be out. I simply cant wait.....

today gina commented something about me. She said that im like Pentium 3. it simply means that im slow .. as in my reaction is slow. hmm... okay gal, i will try to speed up and increase my Pentium. ^^

Anyway, Happy to Cynthia bear bear. hehe. HaPpY BiRtHdAy!!!

2005-10-06T13:38:00.000+08:00

My mind seems to be lost in space right now. nothing much to blog but do continue to keep me in prayers ... pray for overcoming of tributlations etc. thanks =) love you guys.

2005-10-05T12:34:00.000+08:00

wad happened to my blog??? cant post entry using my hse's com....

2005-10-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

i can't seem to post... but bernard say can.. HOW!

2005-09-28T14:12:00.000+08:00

The week started out quite badly. However, the situtation now seems to better then i expected.

Rather busy with stuff those few days and after i reached home, was totally exhausted.... fatigue. After clearing some stuff and complete some work for the day. Dead tired. Last night while reading, fell asleep unknowingly...

Was reading some stuff juz now and came across something very impactful that really encouraged me too...

''We'll ever discover that we are an overcomer until we have something to overcome . A trial is a compliment from God. He's given you something He knows you can beat. You will emerge from the trial better than you entered. Trials are not designed to weaken you they are designed to strengthened you. Greatness is born from overcoming. The stronger the wind, the stronger the tree. "

Anyway, yesterday afternoon i 'happened' to be free. Since bored, i went to search songs in my ipod den came to realised i haven finish listening to the audio cd tat william wanted us to listen. (that was like months ago) 'knocking on heaven's door'. And for the sake of completing it, i juz listen. But soon after i finished listening, i felt inspired... yeah... caught a revelation from it. =))

Plan for next week: catching up with friends especially san which haven been seeing her for weeks. Dying to see her man.. haha. Not forgetting those whom i haven been seeing for quite sometime.

Pls this sat after cgm, we are goin to NYDC... haha. here i come... mudpiessss ...yippi =))

2005-09-26T10:23:00.000+08:00

*sob* i want to and feel like crying now....

i remembered there was once, the sermon was talk about 'my precious'. I lost one of my precious over the night.

I dun wanna blog anymore... bye

2005-09-24T09:50:00.000+08:00

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2005-09-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

Argh!! Guess im having stomach flu now... so uncomfortable.

Each time i pass-by the study corner, i will think for you. our favourite 'hang outs'. The never- failed- daily routine. looking back into the past, i missed those the time where we were mugging for the exams. burial ourselves with books and notes. Those were the stressful yet memorable period. Nevertheless, many interesting incident happened as well. Right now, im missing those times ...

i wished you were back and all those good memories come back in a rush. so many things have happened that i wished i could share with you immedately.

i miss u

2005-09-21T10:00:00.000+08:00

i can still feel the wind upon my face and those fragile little stars that are so near yet far away, shimmering like diamonds, set against the velvety darkness of the night sky. i wanted to reach out for one, to watch it sparkle at the center of my palm and i'll keep it with me forever. it'll be something so precious and no one else will ever have it. My precious ones...

dialect outing

2005-09-19T17:58:00.000+08:00

Woke up today feeling I've got out of the wrong side of the bed. Realised was running a fever and also a small blue-black on the side of my forehead so i continue sleeping till 1.30pm today. tired...

Yesterday was dialect workers outing. A great and eventful day at East Coast park. Filled with tons of fun, laughter and joy. Truely, a great time of fellowship. Indeed, we serve hard and we deserve to play hard too. Everyone was so enthusiastic in participating the games.

All of us were grouped in 4 groups. in fact im the youngest in my group and the oldest is about 40 plus. Despite the age group, all of us showed unity throughout the games. In one way or another, we realise the importance of helping and contribute as a team.

Even though we did not emerge as the winning team. Is the never-give-up spirit and unity that are worth mentioning. =))

Im simply looking forward to another dialect outing. =))

here we go...

2005-09-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

Hit the stores at Far East juz now and finally saw a skirt which i think is very nice. $35... is kind of expensive so im still considering whether should i buy it. should i?

Another harvest at orchard today... finally i found my long- lost -favourite yam puff.. hehe. have been searching for it and finally i found it. yummy.... =))

okay, ' Ask and you shall be given'. hmmm... been longing for this book titled ' Good morning, Holy Spirit' by benny hinn. anyone want to bless me? hehe

Alright, time to get some rest. nite ^.^

2005-09-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

I want to watch ' The longest yard'...

Will be heading down to town after work. Meeting david liew, sophina and william for dinner at far east. at the same time, will be hunting a dress for my cousin's wedding. The wedding is next week and sad to say, i always do last min shopping. Juz hope i could get the things i want..

yeah, im getting pretty excited this coming dec. weee... will be going to either KL or Indonesia with Lyn, Roy and Eric for holidays. haha... eat, shop, eat, shop... great!! Most likely will be Indonesia, i guess.

2005-09-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

Did some spring cleaning of my drawers just now. My drawers on my study table are unique to me. In them I keep all the memories over the years. Old ticket stubs, faded photos, personal notes and cards from friends. They form a part of me, the part that once was. Some memories are worth having, likewise, some are not. But together, they build the path of your life, the pavement that you had trodden on previously, and will still be there when you look back.

Today was spring cleaning though. Some things just have to be cleared as the drawer is not big enough, or those things ought to be disposed of long time ago (one reason or another). Spent about and whole clearing and rearranging the stuff, and when it was done, a feeling of satisfaction :) It is indeed amusing what I can actually keep in my drawers.

Some updates about yesterday...

I attended service 4 yesterday. However, the service was totally awesome that made me want more of it. So whatever reason, i attended service 6 as well.

The service was about 'Heart of worship'. Once again, God presence filled me. Recently been distracted by many things in life that i came to realise where my first love for Him has gone to. i will nv forget about my first love for Him - pure, innocent ...

2005-09-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

PTL. God is realli there during my prayers=) I couldn't make it if i only relay on my own strength. At a point of time i almost give up but thanks God i didn't. kept pressing and holding on. And.. wee... blessings seems to be pouring upon me to this week and im realli amazed by His works and wonders. more to come.... =))

2005-09-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

Life is always tough and everything seems even tougher now. I am constantly in Spiritual battles. Now even worse. Although i might be both mentally and physically weak but i believe, my breakthrough is coming... i will climb like never before.

2005-09-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

I am in deep thoughts at this moment... Why must it be me facing this such situations? Can i simply juz escape from such realistic world? emotionally and mentally down... all i wan is to sleep and dun wan to bother ...

2005-09-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

hmmm... recalling what has happened through out the week.

Guess this week was quite a terrible week for me. Everything seemed to be going very wrong. What's wrong with me?? I feel extremely lousy this week.... i disappointed many people.... ):

2005-08-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

Has it been that long? *dusting around with a feather duster*

Okie, is time to update my blog. Here it goes....

Past few days were feeling quite stress. So many stuff to do.... i need proper time management!!! Feeling so 'lost'... every now and then, i need to draw strength from Him. He is the source of my strength. =)

Today CG was fantastic. Despite tat im feeling physically weak. Had CG at weijian's house... good hospitality. hehe. This morning was kind of having some mood swing... feeling bad. The word 'why' kept flashing in my mind. I knew what is going on but how i wish dun know at all. feeling much better after CG. Today's message is gd. My mind is one again being renewed... refreshed.

Everything around me is changing, the environment, the people, etc. Change is constant, but constants are not that constant anymore. I don't really like change, but I learn to live with it, and look ahead. Look ahead.

2005-08-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Im dumbbbbb

2005-08-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

Argh.... having some abdominal discomfort for the entire morning till now. keep going in and out of the toilet. intially tot i ate something wrong last night ... yesh, i ate something WRONG. I mistaken e constipation tablets as flu.... Oh gosh.

Today i missed my cgm ... so sad. Heard tat today's cgm was fun and interesting. After cgm ended, e whole cg called me.... so sweet of them. ^-^

Will be goin for make up cg tmr. tata...

2005-08-18T16:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah, another 3 more months and someone is back!!! juz got pretty excited over it.... finally... counting down the months. Bet she will get me some pretty cool and nice stuff from perth. Juz sent a parcel over to her... wondering whether she received it.

lost

2005-08-17T19:46:00.000+08:00

Gosh, as if i had a disastrous night.... had a very bad nightmare last night. Scared me and when i woke up this morning, i found myself tearing... sobbing..

As usual, i did visitation with lyn today. Countless thoughts penetrated through my mind after the whole trip. One of the elderly shared how God realli moved in her life.
She was down with serious stroke some time last year and at tat point of time, she cant accept the facts. She tried to commit suicide twice but thanks God, He is always on time to save her. She even dream tat God was talking to her in her dream. God told her : ' Daughter of good cheer, how come u r so silly? your time has not come yet, I will always be there for you.' [something like tat] After tat she prayed fevently with great faith and now, she is able walk even though there's still a mild stroke. See, how great and mighty my God is. =))

Today's visit was amuch more meaningful and fruitful one. I realli have to step out of my comfort zone. yesh sharon, you can do it!! no limitation!!

Well, everything seems to go wrong the moment i move... seems a challenge for me. I feel much like a lost sheep now... Discipline and more discipline..

Okie, will be heading down to gym followed by a swimming session tmr. tata~

Btw, HaPpy BiRthDay to Chow Tee!!
May God shower u with His goodness and that wadever u desire. Bless U ^-^

2005-08-10T18:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was fun...

I went to bus stop at 1.30pm and waited for about 45min finally the bus came. the as slow as a snail bus took 45mins to arrive and instead of one 196, two buses came the same time.

Went bugis with san. initially wanted to go to the flea market at bugis but the weather was so humid that we decided to stay in the mall. Ken called and he joined us. San and i bought the same bag but just different colour. haha.... added to my collection of bags. Den we went into this shop selling clothes. When san was trying the pants, this sales girl came to talk to us. Ooo, she was from the same sec sch as ken. See, ken is so popular in sch... ppl juz takes e effort to remember him... haha. okie, san bought same designs but 2 diff colour of tat long pants. Btw, san and i bought apple studel b4 we left bugis... i love apple studel~

Took a train to boon lay and thanks God, ken was there to entertain was with his lame but not funny jokes..wahaha. Ken and i off to yvonne's hse for BBQ.

BBQ was great! everyone seemed to enjoy themselves as much as they could. celebrated michelle's, benard's and calvin's birthday. Realised that there are many augest babies this months.... haha.

Went to san's hse after the BBQ. For the night, we did some stuff for wm, chatted etc. San's parents bought super for us. i had prawn noodles and the prawns were tiger prawns... yummy, was nice and v v filling.

Went SGH in the morning and had nydc at holland v for lunch. San has this discount card and each of us paid around 10 plus for the set lunch... wow... so cheap... saved lots of money. E service at e holland outlet was good... thumb up.

Rececived a call from lyn... realli depressing to hear tat one the elderly's son frm our estate passed away. wanted to attend the funeral tonight but gotta do some stuff so nv attend. I pray that the family will overcome this crisis, and may the person find eternal rest in Heaven.

2005-08-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

Im able to escape this time round but not the next. Gosh, sooner or later i will still have to face it. Is juz the matter of perfect time? where my courage and faith have gone to? I juz feel sooo useless and stupid of me...

hmmm... another day for me.

i was so unwilling to get out of my bed this morning. Service at SIS was great. After the service, i had to go straight for dialect... no fellowship..

Some of the elderly from my estate gotta take the over-flow buses. Today's attendance was not so bad... managed to hit 50.

After the back trip busing, lynn and i went holland to fellowship with veron. We had dinner at IndoChine. okie, i m sooo full now... have been eating 'good' food for the past few days...haha. I think IndoChine only serves nice banana fitters...haha.

2005-08-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

Did saturation today. walked lots ... did saturation from Queenstown to commonwealth. And came to realise tat mine is one of the biggest estate. Oopss..haha.

Meet eric and lyn at queenstown mrt. Roy wasnt here today coz he needs to work. So eric had to do saturation alone and lynn and i did together. Was pretty fun today but weather was extremely humid today.

yeah, cant wait for tml. its gonna be a busy, fun and exciting day.

Actually supposed to go see fireworks wid san today but coz of FOP i cant make it. okie, nvm.... we shall go watch soon...

2005-08-07T00:38:00.000+08:00

Disappointed? excited? scared? happy? wad mi exactly feeling right now? why mi feeling this way?

Realised tat my strength, faith... are diminishing. Everything seems to be moving very fast before i could notice it.

2005-08-05T01:15:00.000+08:00

2005-08-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

I gave my first kiss to.... lynn choo. ya, is her.... touched rite? haha

wanna thanks mei juan and lynn. they came especially to celebrate belated b'day for me. a mini celebration =))

2005-08-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, let me say a big 'thanks' to everyone. thanks for all those sms-es and presents. =) i like all of them.

This year is one of the best birthday i ever had and enjoyed myself alot today.

had a great time today. okie, celebrated my b'day at harbort front - Breeks cafe with a group of funky, full of faith and funny people...haha. thanks guys for making this day so happening.

Not forgetting all my dear friends. thanks for all those sms-es and phone calls, U r not forgotten.

2005-08-02T01:19:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU. YOU LOVE ME. WE ARE HAPPY FAMILY. =0

2005-07-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

Stretch me....

Okie, finally decided to update even though im like super tired now.

Roy wanna challenge me wid his dialect. but i think mine is still better though. haha. even mine is not perfect but at least still not so bad. ya, not so bad means still can speak a little here and there.

Busing was fun today even though e attendance was quite bad. my elderly is goin to teach me dialect. wow, pickin up new languages? wahaha.

O, one of my elderly almost fall today. Gosh, my heart like gotta crack when i heard abt it. but thanks God tat someone was besides her so she gained her balance.

I only get to see my elderly once a wk. tats... sad. Dialect big day is coming. guess is gonna be super busy on tat day but will be exciting and fun at e same time. =))

Service was.... great. was shocked, scared .... haha. Overall was great.

2005-07-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

Well, its end of the week and i feel so lousy. It started off quite bad and it ended off worse. however today was not so bad... better den wad i tot initially.

Svc was great... Serving was even better(: All the elderly are soo cute and sweet. yeah. Busing was great. Spent great time with them. We sing, laughed, talked etc on the bus. See, so happening especially on bus 7. Some elderly are realli sweet. They even make an effort to remember my name and of coz me!! hehe. i was enjoying till i managed to go thru without thinking the problems tat are surrounding me.

People tat im working are great as well. Lyn, uncle tan, guan shi etc.. from time to time, they are encouaging..

Happy B'day to Irene=)) May God bless you!!

2005-07-22T20:38:00.000+08:00

i need to stretch my capacity.... stretch me plz!!

Well, had a fruitful day today. Did my very first visitation today and as usual, had my lesson as well. =))

My estate is one of the largest estate. it stretches from Queenstown all the way to commonwealth area. yeah, went visitation with lyn and learnt quite alot from her. Guess i still need time to adjust myself .

Had dinner wid lyn at the anchorage. yum yum, i simple love the tom yam soup there. After we had our dinner, we went over to IKEA to have hotdog bread. And i also award myself wid an ice cream after a long week. ^_^

O, time to stretch my capacity.... 24hrs a day is not enough for me. Missing my sleeping time badly. Doing satuation soon.... hope i have time for it!!!

I cant wait for the arrival of monday coz goin out wid dear san. counting down the days....

"Courage is keeping heart in the face of disappointment, and looking at defeat not as an end,but a new beginning.''

2005-07-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

okie, i think im super nuts today. Almost e whole day, i was thinking about my cg mates. Qun, lili, jin cai etc. m i nuts? think abt their well- being, how they did for exams, wad r they doin now etc. Hope all of them will have a blessed week. today is only tuesday and for no reason, i missed them.

2005-07-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince is out! Hehehe. im so excited over it. hmm.... heard tat the movie ALOT LIKE LOVE is rather nice. Gotta watch it someday. (:

anyway, regarding the previous entry i posted. well guys, dun worry. Is juz some small problem... hehe. i have a clearer mind now so before making decision, muz make sure i noe wad m i doing. ya, but im still happy anyway. chip chip chip.

2005-07-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

sooner or later i will get into deep trouble again. O no.... help me!!! How??? terrible... Help me!!!

2005-07-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

ok, Im serving an amazing GOD. Amen.

P.T.L. Blessings after blessings. Well, being blessed tremedously thru out e week. jacket, a discman, chocolate from Germany, necklace from Israel.. wow.. blessings everywhere. (:
Above everything, i wanna give thanks to the most high, my Lord. Thx God for working in my life.

Each day passes, my hunger for His persence in increasing. I believe that one day, i will do great things for Him and his kingdom. Let His will be done.

Okay, honestly i was reluctant to do something today. yesh, v reluctant. However, i did not run away, instead, i draw strength from Him. And he nv fails to disappoint me. He slowing reveal things in my life even tat fading passion is now being revival.

today is an important day. The day to pledge for the Arise and build. When pledging, my tears juz kept flowing out... my hands kept trembling... my heart was pounding v fast. i was hesitating whether this amount realli shows my faith in Him. Finally i decided to pledge tat amount. To some might not think is big amount but to me, it means alot of sacrifice. Realise im not building buildings but building lives. So, ya, is a sacfice to me.

where ur heart is where ur treasure lies!

2005-07-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

Ok so everyone's living within an inch of their lives now.

can someone tell me what to do? My passion for it is slowly fading... dying. At times, it will bring me to a point tat i wan to run away from it. yes, i will find means and ways to escape from it. Honestly, i dun enjoy it.... it juz seems like another burden loading unto me. Probably doing juz because i have to. Doing with unwilling heart...

It's tiring to have to contemplate the consequences, knowing that i'd make the same decision i always do which happens to be wrong and then fel like mudering myself evry single time.

2005-07-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

Bila ku buka mataku dan lihat wajah-MU ku terkagum
bila ku lihat hidupku dan karya tangan-MU ku tersanjung
karna semua yang baik dalam hidup itulah karya-MU
Kau bri kesempatan yang baru
Dan ku ingin mengenal-Mu TUHAN
lebih dalam dari semua yang ku kenal
tiada kasih yang melebihi-MU
ku ada untuk menjadi penyembah-MU

2005-07-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

Qun sms-ed me extremely early this morning. O dear, was in e midst of my beauty slp and she woke me up. =(

Okie, im tired and seriously i need rest!!! haha. my longest record is 18hrs of slp... izzit it great?? hehe.

Yeah, sharon, mag and xuan will be having their IFA ( intermediate financial accounting) exams tmr. All e best :) jia you!!

hey, recently i have been looking forward to my quiet time. Spend quality time =))...aim to complete my bible reading for this month..

2005-07-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

Oops, im being bless again today. P.T.L. is tat counted as a blessing?? haha. yup, gonna share this funny testi this coming cgm. Guess they will laugh like crazy.-_-'' muhaha

well, received quite a number of blessings. even though some might be small but after all, still blessings. (:

2005-07-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

So blessed, i cant contain it.....

Read this short story 'beginning from the end' and was greatly blessed by it. How amazing the hopeless find hope.

okay, i muz be respondsible and be faithful in every area of my life and the things im doing. If nv sow, how mi able to reap? yup yup. take a step of faith....

2005-07-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

When the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something that's of worth
that will bless your heart

i'll bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

i'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
it's all about you jesus
i'm sorry lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you jesus

king of endless worth
no one could express
how much you deserve
and through all these years
all i have is yours
every single breath..

yup, indeed is beautiful.

i wan to go back to the heart of worship. the only place with no string attach.... the only place with the truth and e truth shall set me free....

2005-07-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

nose bleed b4 cgm starts. maybe is due to e weather. weather is pretty humid for e past few days. Qun was kinda shocked...

Went queensways shopping centre wid jin cai, edwin, hui bing and alicia after CGM. Edwin is going thru extreme makeover under jin cai's gudiance... wahaha.

think the pink long sleeves shirt looks pretty nice on bai lau su. E shirt is kinda unique. E shirt edwin bought is nice too.... a gd harvest @ queensway shoppin centre for edwin.

muhaha... think i better keep a distance away from jin cai from now on. Strong descenin of HS. tats scary... ya... haha. U also scared rite? Ooops.

yeah, i cant wait for Sentosa. A date wid my dear san. yup yup. the following wk come soon!!=DD

Anyway, Happy Birthday to U, chenguang.
Happy b'day to u. Thanks God tat didnt have a jackfruit celebration... haha.

O, william is leaving to taiwan tml. we will miss U and do take care (: think he is pretty sad tat we cant send him off even though he didnt say out. but dropped hints ... hehe. let the love of God touches e hearts in taiwan.

2005-07-08T11:02:00.000+08:00

this coming wk is study break and the following wk is exams period. wee, 2 wk later will be gng out wid sharon and mag. wee =))

2005-07-08T01:54:00.000+08:00

okie i am here again (:

Sighhhh. My nose is blocked AND running at the same time. The amazing abilities of the human body. Oh yeah, my throat is sore too. Double sigh.

Could not get down to sleep last night, since there were a lot of things on my mind. So much so that I was held up thinking about them. Gave up on sleeping in the end, and woke up very early.

stonned for the almost the entire day. lots of things were running thru my mind today. ya, almost everything tat revolving my life.

Time now is 3am and i still cant get to sleep. GOsh, gotta meet san tmr and we will be heading down to holland V. Went to holland V wid san on monday. bought a top for myself and she got herself 2 tops. den she saw this v unique flip flop and juz nice it run out of stock so gotta accompany her to holland V again on friday. Went town wid felica, jess etc on monday evening. wanted to get a skirt but could't find nice one. instead, bought another top from MNG.

hAha, san is gonna make shrimp on toast for me tmr.. specially for me. yummy. yup yup. :)

2005-07-04T10:35:00.000+08:00

I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
cos it's gonna be a bright sunshiny day (:

2005-07-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

Why muz i get so freaked out? pissed off?
coz i care and concern.
coz im doing it for the kingdom.
coz i wan to serve my very best.
if not, i wont even wan to care.
if tat is e case, i dun wan to bother it anymore.

2005-07-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

Past few days have been real busy.

I juz reached home from my CG BBQ. So here I am, blogging on this beautiful night...

Had a successful BBQ today. Everything went well and i realli enjoyed myself. ok, went for overnight prayer meeting yesterday. So, i barely slept for 1h. was quite tired in the morning. Had CGM at 12nooon @ alicia's hse.

4pm, we gathered at west coast park. Started off playing some games and BBQ at around 6pm.
ok, i was super hyper today. i wanna thanks God for giving me strength to last thru out e day=))

2005-07-01T00:19:00.000+08:00

2005-06-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

sharon is tired. sharon is excited over this coming sat BBQ. sharon is.... cute. Oopss.. haha. a little retarded ^-^''

2005-06-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

Thumb up for Initial D (:

juz reched home. Went to watch initial D with sharon today. *san, you gotta watch* (: She is crazy over edison chen lol. Fun hanging out wid her. the pinky girl .. wahaha.

Car racing is so exciting especially the part where they have to make e turn.
trueno AE86( the tofu car) is super cool la or should i say e person driving is cool. :D Edison is handsome and cute. Jay zhou is cool and has character.

i enjoyed the movie.
:))

2005-06-27T00:53:00.000+08:00

when i look into the skies above
wonder how my life has changed
wonder how your love it came to me
when i look into the skies above
all my fears so far away
all i hear is heaven calling me
so i look to You...

wow, beautiful. (:

Friday:

Went for a game of pool with my CG on friday evening. It was quite fun and I got to see tzuqun's nicely done violet hair! Cool eh?

Sat:

Went for CGM den after tat went to alicia's cousin condo. the condo is kinda cool... okie... is v cool. we went to eat @ the club hse and her cousin booked a pool room as well. okie, the only thing tat made us freaked out was the jackfruits. wahah...

Hey, im kinda excited over this coming sat BBQ. woo, another day of great fun and happening too. yup yup. =))

2005-06-26T10:10:00.000+08:00

Look at what you have. Not what you dun have :))

2005-06-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
BAI LAO SU

haha.... happy birthday to you, jin cai. (:
God bless you and have a fabulous 18th b'day

2005-06-20T20:46:00.000+08:00

Last sat marked my 1\2 a year in CHC. * cheers* wow, time flies and i have been seving the Lord for 6 months. I m indeed privilege to be able to serve Him and will continue serving Him to my v last moment on this earth...

To be real frank, coming to CHC has never crossed my mind at all. To me, CHC seemed like a pop singer's church, not helped by the fact that it is always on the newsapaper with negative comments. Before I even stepped into CHC , i heard comments like "don't go to that rich church, yada yada.' How foolish I had been.

So when qun approached me to join her for service, i rejected her like 2-3 times. it was sometime back last mid year. i remember she also invited me for some big event [ think is emerge or?? 04] Ken invited san and me as well. i appricated their invitation but rejected them.
till somewhere around christmas time last year den under some circumstances, i finally accepted her invitation.

the moment i first entered in CHC, i was like ' wow, nice church' but nv set my heart to stay in this church. Probably like after attending 1-2 times service, i won't come back again. travel distance is one of the problem. i have to travel like 45min juz to attend the service and my weekends juz goes off like this moreover im not those who like to make big commitments. i used to pity those chriatians that have to sacrifice their time.hehe

i still remember clearly tat within the week, william called me up to join them for cgm. i was very reluctant and told him i was not avaliable tat sat. but thx tat he nv give up and called me on the following wk. i finally agreed and joined them for cgm.

Intially I was unwilling to go church everyweek... monotony routines. Usually i spend my weekends going out etc to do much more meaningful things. Slowly but surely, things changed. I realise how much God loves me tat He died on the cross for me... Juz for me. I begin to accept Him in my life and set my heart to serve Him till the end of the earth.

And now, im proud to be in this family. I have certainly matured tremendously for the period of time I came here. During e past 6 months, many things happened but i know He will continue to carry me. He is the one tat shines light to my path and always be faithful and by my side.

it was also lightheartening to see everyone showing their concern, and helping others in the cg when anyone in the cg is going thru some difficulities. sharing joy and tears together.

was out with san today. i enjoy chatting and sharing things wid her. Now, i have another view of life... definately a positive one. =)

2005-06-19T02:17:00.000+08:00

A bar of chocolate is enough to make me smile and a bucket of jackfuit is enough to make me run away from it. i doubt ppl from my cell with enjoy eating jackfuit after today. but after all, we had a wonderful time together :)

2005-06-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

why i must be greatly affected by what others think and say? if i know actually why and what m i doing for, i dun have to care and even need to give a damn of it. God sees and knows everything.

blessed

2005-06-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

yvonne was complaining how come i nv update my blog. so here it goes....

i remembered lynn asked me what has God has done for me. And without hesitation, i replied :' God has placed many wonderful people in my life.' true indeed, God has placed many wonderful ppl in my life and im greatful tat i known and received Him.

Saw lynn, bernard, xin yi and ken today. initially i tot tats so good of lynn and bernard to visit me but i was wrong. they wanted to use the loo and by an conincidence they saw me. okay, saw ken and his JC cluster friends. at first i nv notice ken. happened to reconigze the girl from AC and i called her. made friends wid them and joked with them as well. they are some nice and cool ppl.

okay, highlight of my entry. I feel so blessed now. i made a lot of new friends today. yup, met quite a number of nice ppl today. one of which gave me a bar of chocolate for my 'dinner'. she is juz one of my customer but from customer to friend ... how wonderful. wow, such great ppl i met when working. okay, made friend with this NP girl as well. She is another nice ppl whom i met today. even though we juz met today, words juz kept flowing out and no lack of topic to talk about. had a great coversation wid her. invited them to my church and praise the Lord, most probably they will be joining me for service soon...wow.. cant wait for the day to come. *smile*

many customers tat bought things from my shop eventally come back and find me again. before i started working, i will feel a little paiseh coz will definately see alot of ppl i know . However, i dun realli feel tat way now. God is so good tat He placed more ppl to enter my life. i quite enjoy what i m doing now... serving Him evryday... able to know more ppl from all walks of life. this job also allows me to be more independent and expose to the things in the society.

btw, do drop by and visit me okie. =))

[ having a movie date wid lynn this fri. feel free to join us. ]

2005-06-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

it's the little things of everyday life that make me realise i miss you, and each time i 'd laspe into another world that is so personal it is hard to even begin to share ; so what exactly goes thru my mind is difficult to describle. wonderful memories that make me think back...

had a lousy start for the day....

i was sooo disappointed in the morning. okay, i carried the sadness on the bus on my way to church. was thinking how on earth can this happen!!. the feeling is definately not gdd.
btw, im not angry wid u. so dun feel guilty over it.

After all, God turned my situation the other way round. During the service, the Holy Spirit was on me. when respone to alter, i took a step of faith and ask the new friend, which william assigned me to take care. Praise the Lord. i talked to her for last den 20s and she responded. at tat moment, i felt so .... so... wow [ dun know wads e word to describle]. is my first time doing this and im so proud of myself. (: a sense of delight in me. well, the rest to e journey muz still much depends on herself.

After service, i joined the fellowship with W210. my cell went marina south for steam boat. so sad i nv join them. O, found out tat shannon is not tat fierce after all... wahah. my view of her changed.

okay, im tired now, its time for my imagination to fly high... hehe. nite.

2005-06-11T19:12:00.000+08:00

went mos burger for lunch wid san today. The moment i saw her, my heart somehow was 'crying'. noticed how much she has changed but still remains optimistic as she used to be. The cheerful girl wid an alluring smile. the girl tat can never be defeat easily. The more I looked at her, the more my heart cries for her.[ words can't simply describle my feelings.] She even shared with me the things she is goin thru and it takes alot of courage to it. She is one great girl whom I have admired and looked upon.

She even remembered jin cai and ken. wahaha, too bad ken wasn't there.

thanks God for placing san in my life. a fren so precious and dear, one i will neva forget, always miss, and sincerely cherish. i'm really glad we are friends, thanks God for all the happy memories and the wonderful ones yet to come.

anyway, before the service starts, i was sharing wid jin cai this guy i saw during the Emerge conference. one of the outstanding ones. * yup* even qun agreed tat he one of the charming guy in church. [surprising, she knows who he is] wahaha, this shows how typical girls are.

right now im thinking of extra spicy stingray,cereal prawns and mussel ... yum :D was kidda sad now coz i cant join my cell for steamboat tmr but at least have cadbury chocolate to cheer me up (:

hey guys, after reading this story, i was touched so do enjoy it.....

One night a man had a dream. he dreamed that he was walking along the beach with the Lord. across the sky flashed scenes from his life. for each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. he noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. he also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why you leave me when i need you the most.

The Lord replied "My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering when you saw only a set of footprints, that was when i carried you."

san is coming...

2005-06-10T23:42:00.000+08:00

Seems ironic that when someone is sober when in slumber...

The Emerge conference was simple awesome. * cheers* im blessed with all those messages which Pst kong preached during e conference. hope i will always bear that in mind and will never forget, Instead, i will apply it in my daily walk with Him.

was left me feeling very blessed after reading lynn's blog. im juz feeling so blessed as there is not much parental objection from my parents for attending church. my parents has given me many freedom in life... no curfew. but at times i step beyond the bounderies and take things for granted. i greatly appreciate the things they did in my life ....

anyway, my sis is back from perth. okay, was expecting something from her but it turned out no surprise, no gift. O, such disappointment. Zhong hao is flying off to perth with his family for holidays. happy holidays!!!

i love san lots. Praise the Lord, san is joining me for service tmr. woohoo~, its been ages eversince we hang out together, chat with each other etc.. Gonna meet her for lunch before goin church. weee.
san, san, san..... =))

2005-06-08T01:15:00.000+08:00

woohoo, today is the first day of Emerge.... Extraordinary Emerge conference 2005. the most anticipating events for the youth *fly high*

wow, amazing.... i realli enjoyed today's conference... 2 more days to go. realli impacted me greatly. i love to dwell in His presence =) im asking and looking for a breakthru during this Emerge.... i wan more of the HS.

i think the best part of today's conference is the POS performance besides praise and worship. well done !!! Praise and worship simply rocks to the core. yesh, He is much a graceful, merciful and awesome God. O lord, in ur presence is where i wanna stay=) I gonna join POS in the coming years (:

stress

2005-06-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

Oh no, stress.... i m feeling quite stress now....

alright, went town wid qun and wen han and was being blessed today. wen han blessed qun and me from a treat at nydc. thanks. (: after lunch, we went to book e movie tickets [ monster in law] den we went marche for a drink.

About the movie, I found it quite nice.. actually. :P One of the nicer comedies i've seen in a while... the movie was hilarious ...wahaha. really had a good laugh though.

after the movie, wen han and i went to clementi cs to meet the rest. lionel was there too. i wasn't late, instead, he was early. but this time, he didn't get to scare me... hehe. i was chatting wid wen han and lionel and saw this guy approaching to our direction. O, it was jin cai. woohoo, he dyed his hair again. o: this time is grey-ash and blue. quite shocking actually, however, lts kinda cool wid this hair colour. jin cai, u never fail to amaze me.... :P Okay, seemed like i was the one talking non-stop while waiting for the rest. s:

I need U

2005-06-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... my sis is flying off to perth 4 holidays in 2 days time....

woke up at 10am today.... so tired. initially planned to go PH in e evening but was too tired and lazy so decided not to go. took an afternoon nap... woke up @ about 5pm. so for the whole afternoon, i was in my room doin some reading. read bible, magzines as well as harvest times. trying to catch up wid my bible reading, even though i m far way behind.

the hunger for God juz keep growing in my heart. i juz need more of Him. juz felt that im drifting away from Him now. realised i haven been reading His word from time to time. even though i have been doing my quiet time consistently, i cant realli sense his presence. All i need is Him. i need Him by my side, during my quiet time and to guide me in my daily walk and most importantly, in His wonderful kingdom. i need Him to answer my prayers, my deeply required ones. my dreams n visions, i need to seek it from Him earnestly. i want to stay in His presence at all times.

was reading Harvest Times and realli enriched my life-esp my spiritual one. It is one of the best source of spiritual nourishment. i juz got to know so much so much. Especially last month has been a great and wonderful month. many anointed preacher came to deliever God's word to us. stepping up to a new level of faith.=) i juz simple need more spritual food, grow stronger in my prayer life and Godly principles.

okay, heading to town tmr wid qun and wen han. having lunch @ nydc... mudpie, here i come...woo. *cheers* guess should be catching a movie wid wen han [monster in law?] after that as qun needa to leave at about 4pm and will be joining us again at 6pm for pool. goona meet the rest for pool as well.